Job Satisfaction

[Dream]

My Judaism question:

If you are someone who grew up Jewish having a basic Jewish education in Hebrew, Gematria, etc, and you've learned how to have reverence and to pray like a Jewish person; have you reached a plateau of satisfaction in which you feel like you are certain about the Torah's basic purpose and origin and agree with it? What about your own purpose and origin? In my situation these seem like mosquitoes that fly away from me as I chase after them on a sticky molasses treadmill. Ok, that's an exaggeration. Naturally there are others like me who don't feel that way, but they're just in denial. How is it for you guys?


An aside:

I like this comparative religion site! So many interesting threads!